Thursday 30 June 2016

Thoughts on a Thursday¦ Attitude

Hey Guys,

Now that I have finished exams, my attitude has changed immensely. 

Rather than my attitude being a mindset of: do this, do that, finish this, finish that. My attitude has become much more of Let's do that, Let's finish this. It has become proactive, seeking out new ways to spend my new found freedom.  Even before exams socialising can sometimes feel like a chore or a pressure, something to do on top of everything else you need to do. Now? Now that my attitude and focus has changed and adjusted socialising becomes something fun rather than an annoyance. 

However, you could argue that this change could be just do to the weight of exams lifting, but i think attitude changes are down to the individual. You are the one who gains this Let's do this attitude. 

So how. How have i hopefully made this attitudinal change permanent...

1. Decide what it most important in your life. Not what is important in the present but what will always be important. 

2. What is your aim  in life. Whats the end point, what is that thing that if you succeed then you feel accomplished. 

3. Once you've decided on those two, an attitude shift will ensue. What is most important becomes a deciding factor on your life. If i do this will this help, hinder or danger that thing which i value the most. Your end game. That's the drive. Its like in Harry Potter and the Patronus charm, the happiest the memory the stronger the spell is. Therefore the bigger and better and more honest to yourself your dream is the better it is to drive and spur you on. 

Attitude and motivation for me go hand in hand. Once my attitude and outlook on a situation changes. My motivation increases beyond all measure. So these steps can be switched around. If you have rubbish motivation, as I often suffer from see if your attitude is in the right place and then that directly improves your motivation.

Anyway, these are just the thoughts running through my head as I'm bursting with no more exams energy.

Love,
LadyoftheRivers x


Sunday 26 June 2016

Saying Goodbye

Hey Guys,

Saying goodbye to anything is difficult, especially when that thing has been part of your life for 14 years...

That 'thing' for me is school. School is something that becomes your entire focus, it controls and dictates your life.

My schedule was: Wake up, school, work, sleep, wake up ,school, work, sleep. X6 times a week. ( yes I know, i had Saturday school..Oh the horror..)

Even your friends become the ones you make and see in school, your future starts to depend on what happens at school.
School is your life.

And then its over, 14 years of routine over.

Therefore when it ends, even for a relatively non-sentimental person like me it is weird.

My school, although I have some bad memories there, it was cheese-ly my home for 5 years.
Literally though because of the immense hours i had to spend there working...

School being over is definitely a good thing, I am now free to focus entirely on history, eat as much ice cream as i want and watch TV and movies until my head hurts.

For those of you who have finished school, you'll know the feeling of happiness, freedom mixed with apprehension at the amount of time you now have and the fact you now have to actually manage and succeed in your life..by yourself. (But seriously what was I doing with my life before revision).

If you haven't left school, don't worry you will get there. Every teacher criticism, mean person and low grade is one small step to leaving. You'll get there in no time.

As i end this chapter, finally, in my life i decided to make a video to commemorate
(linked here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMBYh0OuHyY )

Hope you all have a good week, I will be slowly processing the fact i never have to endure another school lesson again....

But as Pi from the Life of Pi said: "Life is defined by letting go. What holds you back is not saying goodbye."

Love,
LadyoftheRivers x