Am I invisible?

Hey Guys,

Everything here is incredibly stressful, a levels have just started and I am panicking.

Hope if you are facing the dreaded exams, you're surviving and crushing it....

But. I wanted to take a break and blog about something that I'm questioning,

Am I invisible?

I don't know if you guys ever think this but seriously let me gives some examples...

I always get spoken over, I don't know if its because I have a quiet voice but if I try and speak louder I get told I'm shouting? But also in text form when I'm ignored time and time again if I am on a group chat or something I'm sorry if this sound like I'm complaining but it just been something I've often wondered about and i just a bit tired of being seen in this way.
Also I seem to be the stepping stone. This means I introduce certain friends to some of my other friends and then I'm rejected like mouldy cheese. This scenario has happened countless times but probably the most hurtful was recently when my long-time close friend has found a new group of friends at first I was the most supportive I have been and honestly encouraging her to go and hang out with them. Until. She literally threw that back in my face by telling me I was no longer fun to be around because I was panicking about exams and she would much rather be with her new friends and wished she was hanging out with them while spending time with me. This felt like a slap in the face. To many of you this probably sounds mundane and stupid to be angry over this but it was just one thing out of many examples I could give.

So I have come to you guys to ask you a question.

What can you do when you out grow a friend?

It's like those awesome clothes you had when you were younger but then one day you paused. looked at yourself in the mirror struggling to fit into that top, do the buttons on that coat and to move in those jeans. And knew, it as time to say goodbye.

And that feeling is like some friends. My mum calls the "fair-weather friends" cause they're only around for the good times, but when things go hairy they run away faster than the road-runner...

So in answer to those two questions.
Yes, i am going to be invisible, maybe it because I try to be kind so people think it is okay to step over you- anyone else with a kind-looking face get my problem?-.

But to outgrowing friends yeah, it sucks that it happens, I honestly don't know what I'm going to do know, maybe just see how it pans out.

Let me know if you ever struggle with these things...

Love,
Ladyoftherivers x

Sorry this was so melodramatic but blogging helps put things into perspective and  just love to have a rant and a blog...