Saying Goodbye

Hey Guys,

Saying goodbye to anything is difficult, especially when that thing has been part of your life for 14 years...

That 'thing' for me is school. School is something that becomes your entire focus, it controls and dictates your life.

My schedule was: Wake up, school, work, sleep, wake up ,school, work, sleep. X6 times a week. ( yes I know, i had Saturday school..Oh the horror..)

Even your friends become the ones you make and see in school, your future starts to depend on what happens at school.
School is your life.

And then its over, 14 years of routine over.

Therefore when it ends, even for a relatively non-sentimental person like me it is weird.

My school, although I have some bad memories there, it was cheese-ly my home for 5 years.
Literally though because of the immense hours i had to spend there working...

School being over is definitely a good thing, I am now free to focus entirely on history, eat as much ice cream as i want and watch TV and movies until my head hurts.

For those of you who have finished school, you'll know the feeling of happiness, freedom mixed with apprehension at the amount of time you now have and the fact you now have to actually manage and succeed in your life..by yourself. (But seriously what was I doing with my life before revision).

If you haven't left school, don't worry you will get there. Every teacher criticism, mean person and low grade is one small step to leaving. You'll get there in no time.

As i end this chapter, finally, in my life i decided to make a video to commemorate
(linked here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMBYh0OuHyY )

Hope you all have a good week, I will be slowly processing the fact i never have to endure another school lesson again....

But as Pi from the Life of Pi said: "Life is defined by letting go. What holds you back is not saying goodbye."

Love,
LadyoftheRivers x

Living in a imaginary world

Hey guys,

Do you ever forget reality, replacing it for a world in your head where everything works out.

Exams are passed with flying colours

Romance is more successful than a failure.

Where everything has worked. 

I've noticed I'm doing it a lot at the moment. And it's a bit of problem. 

When in your head you've already passed the test... Reality you haven't actually studied for it yet...

In your head you and your 'crush' are successfully dating/married/ have kids. Reality... They don't know your name.

Maybe one day what's in our head will become reality... But until that day... I have something great to keep me occupied 

Love,

Ladyoftherivers

'That Girl' Aura

Hey Guys,

Its passed midnight on Halloween, October is over.

I've just stumbled in after a party and although it is seriously personal, I need to blog about it.

I've left that party feeling deflated, fat and ugly. Not just because some guys chose to make out with my friends rather than me. No, i learnt a long time ago that I cannot relay on a guy. I need to be myself.

It was the fact i noticed, properly the Aura certain girls had. It was almost like they could wink at someone who'd moments later be at there beck a call.

I guess i'm just tired of how much other people's actions affect me, even if they don't mean too.

Sometimes i wish this body wasnt mine.

#TamponTax

Hey Guys,

So in Britain right now, there has been growing support for a movement I have watched, supported and been part of for a while now.

Stop Taxing Sanitary Products like Pads and Tampons.

The reason I support this is because unlike other "luxury" items you can't stop having periods. Rather than being a choice pads, tampons etc are a necessity for preventing everything from being ruined, by the lining our uterus's. Sorry. TMI?

Anyway, the reason I why to bring it up is because personally i think this shows the small inequalities that still remain in society which now need to be uprooted and eradicated.

So yesterday when Commons voted against the tampon tax... i just felt kind of deflated. There was such momentum with this movement and for me it made so much sense... That to have so many, white, middle class and middle aged men who've never experienced a period it their whole life vote against it. Despite the fact women have to pay more money for things such as deodorant that men.

And to be honest. I'm sick of this everyday sexism that has just become normal in our society.

Love,

LadyoftheRivers x

http://www.buzzfeed.com/jasminnahar/hilarious-responses-to-tampons-being-considered-a-luxury#.ekKBBmLMgg

Being a Boss ass Bitch.

Hey Guys,

I'm writing this in a cocoon of duvet, eating Haribo while watching Love Actually in the comfiest jumper ever... Seriously its like comfort blessed us an became an object...This jumper.

Anyway, why have a gone all out in trying to perk myself up. Because I'm not in the best mood. That is an understatement but let's not dwell on it too much.

The root of this problem is in short, idiots. 

But like the quote says I refuse to let them ruin my day. So i have tempted positivity out with sugar and cheesy jokes to prove to myself and them that I have gone over the idiots.

And in celebration of this I thought I would share with you guys this quote to let you overcome with the inevitable idiots that try and ruin your day, so instead you can go and be a boos ass bitch by going over them

I let you know the consequences,

Love,

LadyoftheRivers x

" Deeds not Words"

Hey Guys,


Yesterday I finally had time to go and see the movie 'Suffragette'. I was not disappointed.

If your a bit confused the Suffragettes were a group of Women who campaigned for many decades in order to gain the right to vote. Their leader was Mrs Emmiline Pankhurst who coined the phrase: "Deeds not Words", which led to the controversial militant actions of the suffragettes such as cutting of telephone wires and smashing windows in order to make themselves heard.

It worked.

Selected women gained the vote in 1918 which started a chain reaction that meant all women eventually got from 1920 onwards.

The film charts Carey Mulligan's character Maud Watts and tracks how she became a suffragette.

It shows her in prison, rioting and in Darby Day ( thats how its spelt right?)

Anyway, I think it was a beautiful film... And yes I did cry...

Watch the trailer here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=056FI2Pq9RY

Love,

LadyoftheRivers x

Crying at Carrie Hope Fletcher

Hey Guys,

Now before I start this post, I want to apologise for being AFK (absent from Keyboard). I have no excuses and I'm so sorry.... I promise on Shakespeare's Quill I wil pick this up again

Such as this story...

Crying at Carrie Hope Fletcher.

I went to a Literate festival recently, near where I live and Carrie was one of the authors attending. After nervously clutching my book for about 20 minutes in the cramped corridor outside the venue, we were let in. I then spent a even more anxious 20 minutes waiting for her to arrive- then she did. Carrie starting speaking about her life, her book ( after all it was a literary festival) and her youtube channel. I was enthralled, after seeing this person grow on youtube for like three years now? and her in turn helping me grow it was literally like meeting a close friend who you knew loads about but she didn't know anything about you.

I managed to keep it together until someone asked a question which turned out to be my Kryptonite . 

Body Image.

As someone who's NEVER been good with this- and lets be honest no one really is. When Carrie answered in her usual upbeat way i just.. cried a little bit.

This was awkward because I was on the FRONT ROW. Yep. Not tucked away at the back when my emotional outburst could be quickly hidden with tissues, Oh no, I could be seen from all angles.
Luckily everyone was too busy focusing on the beacon that it Carrie, except from one stage hand who just looked at me, and stared, I could tell he was placing me in a mental file that said "Weird teenage fan-girl who cries at author". Great. So much for my cool and grown up exterior. Well, Let's be honest no- one was getting fooled by that....


Anyway- In conclusion after i had wiped away most the the mascara and eye-liner that had fallen down my face, I managed to meet Carrie who was so sweet and kind... Although I didn't really say what I wanted to say...

I just kinda 'Word Vomited' on her by saying "HI... You're great... I read all my friends are superheroes... Loved it... The Ending...Perfect..I love you...Bye"

Yep.

I'm so coherent.

It was not the beautifully put together conversation when Carrie would see we should be best friends... Instead I looked insane.

Anyway...Better luck next time?

Have you ever had an awkward fan moment... Please let em know to make me feel a little better....

Love,

LadyoftheRivers